Friday, April 17, 2009

mentally preparing and looking back

I have competed in team sports since I first started walking. softball, basketball, lacrosse, soccer, volleyball...and most importantly and my favorite..cross country and track. Ive lifted weights for 14 years. I even competed at the collegiate level for a couple of years in track, racing the 10k. I am a VERY nervous and competitive person, but not with anyone but myself. I could care less if another girl my age/weight/height/ beats me. I do care when I know I could have done better. This feeling and thought process has always been with me since I was a little girl with sports and running. BUT, it has just now come to me with CrossFit. Its not something you can teach. Being aggressive with yourself is the hardest lesson I have ever had to learn. I have mostly used CrossFit as to compliment my road races, triathlons, or cycling.

Since January 1st, starting with the I am CrossFit Challenge, things are different in my life. I started turning things around...and shit got crazy. Results came, fears conquered, goals hit, and new goals appeared.

I have changed EVERYTHING in my life in regards to workout out and eating. And for the first time in 14 years I look exactly the way I want to( thanks zone)with room to get better. I picked up 100 pounds yesterday and put it over my head three times. That says a lot about what I have changed. I have gotten super-serious about everything that is CrossFit.

At the Fittest Games Challenge I came in fourth next to some pretty strong girls...and First in the complete challenge. I NEVER thought I could do any of that...but once I found the aggressiveness in myself I have been hitting goals every day.

Every day that I walk in to the gym I surprise myself. I cant believe how strong and fast and tough I am with weightlifting. I pick up the normal weight I think I can do, and five minutes into the workout I am yelling at Lance or JDP to add some more weight for me..or Zach is asking why it looks so easy.I just didn't know what I could do. Of course, Michael has been telling me this for some time. BUT, you cant teach aggressiveness...its a learned process and the only teacher you have is yourself. So for me, it took a while. But I am damn proud of myself for what I have accomplished. Every time I do a chest-to-bar pull-up I have a secret little smile inside that is so happy to be where I am.


  1. You should be proud of yourself! You are a real fighter and an inspiration. I am so happy you are finally realized how strong you are. You're a bad ass.