I saw pictures of women in magazines with these amazing bodies and it looked like they were so proud of the way they looked. They must have had some great self esteem because they looked perfect. What I wouldn't do to feel like I could walk into a room and hold my head up and shoulders back so proud of who I was. To be "sexy" was something I would never be called. I wanted to be perfect, just like all the models. That's what I needed, to change the way I looked.
So, after a year of thought I decided that breast implants were the way to go. Done.
Fast forward to 2011. I started at Crossfit Central as a client in early 2008 as a weak, shy, always embarrassed, very nervous 27 year old woman. It took one year to become a coach. Two years of competing at the Crossfit Games. Three years of blood, sweat, and tears in the gym alongside the most fantastic people I have ever met. Three years to meet three of the best friends I will ever have. Three years and I am a completely different person.
There is something about a group of women in the Crossfit gym working out and getting strong together. We get together and feel like we can accomplish anything. Being strong is an amazing thing. No one can tell me what to think, what to do and what to feel. I am my own woman, person, and athlete. I adore my life, my job, and my clients. I can pick up heavy shit and open my own jars. You will not talk down to me, insult me, run over me, get in my way, or mess with my friends. I am strong, confident, and know I will be successful.
I AM A WOMAN.
I AM STRONG.
I AM SEXY.
I AM CROSSFIT.
This is what Crossfit has given me. This is what strength has given me. I do not know where I would be without it. I don't need these implants anymore. They are gone. So when you see me at the gym looking a little smaller and different, don't stare. Just realize how powerful strength can be, and applaud it.